i hate waking up in the middle of the night to the sound of the rain and thunder. i hate the feeling of remembering what happened a month ago. i hate this feeling. please just take it away. i want to forget, but i know i have to remember.

i miss spending time with you. please keep safe.<3 mwah! i love you.<3 xoxo

people always say that welcoming the new year should also be a start of doing something new, or changing old bad habits and behaviors. or doing something that has never happened before. a new year is something that people should look forward to. a new chance at life. but now, i don't really think so. seeing people around me, not knowing what to do or how to move on and even what to look forward to after the typhoon washed out houses and killed family members. it's been more than 2 weeks since the typhoon affected us. but people are still living in tents or evacuation centers, unable to clean their houses because of the thick mud that's been left behind by the flood. some people are still missing. and for some they don't have houses to go back to.
i know that my family is still lucky because our house is still there. today, we started cleaning up. hoping to still scavenge things that would still be useful. clothes, important papers, money, things. but i can feel the heaviness in the air, when i saw our house i don't even know what to say. the house that's been my home since i was two. the house that's full of memories. still standing, able to endure, but unsure. unsure if we could still live there with all the damage.
i'm still unable to sleep straight. i still wake up at around 1 or 2 am. listening, alert. paranoia. i'm still worried when it rains. i guess the typhoon has really affected not just the physical and material aspect. but the emotional and spiritual, as well. i hope for this year, those who have been affected by the typhoon would be able to stand strong again. to build again. their hopes and their dreams of the future.
i guess this would be a year of just having the faith, courage, and hope to move on. happy new year y'all.

happy new year y'all

Seasons of Love

Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes.

Five hundred twenty five thousand moments so dear.

Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes.

How do you measure, measure a year?

In daylights, in sunsets, in mid nights, in cups of coffee,

in inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

In five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes,

how do you measure a year in a life?

How about love?

How about love?

How about love?

Measure in love.

Seasons of love.

Seasons of love.

Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes.

Five hundred twenty five thousand journeys to plan.

Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes.

How do you measure the life of a woman or a man?

In truth that she learned, or in times that he cried?

In bridges he burned, or the way that she dies?

It's time now, to sing out,  though the story never ends.

Let's celebrate, remember a year in the life of friends.

How about love?

How about love?

How about love?

Measure in love.

Seasons of love.

Seasons of love.

walang magawa, walang ligo

sa sobrang bored at walang ibang maisip gawin, ito ang nangyari sakin. normal look yan, even though parang ilang araw na akong hindi naliligo. hahaha. sira ang ulo ko ngayon, kaya pati tiyan ko sira rin. reklamo ng reklamo. hindi ako makatulog dahil ora orada gusto kong mag jebs. kaya pansensya na. haha. wala lang talaga akong magawa.:)

dalawang araw nalang pala at 2012 na. hmm. anong magandang gawing new year's resolution? hehe. hindi talaga ako mahilig sa mga new year's resolution, kasi para sa 'kin kung may gusto ka talagang bagohin sa sarili mo, hindi mo na kelangan hintayin ang paglipat ng taon para magbago. pwede namang sa oras na talagang maisipan mo kung anong gusto mong bagohin eh bagohin mo na sarili mo diba. siguro ang akin lang sa susunod na taon, may mga bagay lang siguro akong gustong ma accomplish para sa sarili ko bago mag 2013. gaya ng bumalik sa bahay namin na pinutikan ni bagyong sendong. o di kaya ay makasal na. hahaha. siguro i'll come up with a list. but for now, ligo muna ako.:)

new radicals.

new radicals is love.<3

lyle.:)

i can't really imagine what you will look like. three months more and you'll be here. i'm excited as hell, as well as the other person who created you. boy or girl, it doesn't matter, as long as you're healthy and all well. i promise i will try my best to be good and i'll care for you more than anything else in the world. you're a dream come true. i love you baby in my tummy.<3

Child, Child

Sophia White

Child, child, lai la lay, 

I’ll hold you tightly one of these days. 

Child, child, lorra lai, 

It will be a while, but you’ll be mine. 

Child, child, lai la lay, 

I’ll stroke your hair and softly say: 

Child, child, lorra lai, 

I’m here to love you and all is right. 

Child, child, lai la lay, 

You may not even be alive today. 

Child, child, lorra lai, 

But I’ll be waiting for you, child mine.

(from http://poemhunter.com)